Hey everyone!

I haven't been using the internet or the laptop that much lately only checking emails here and there. You know, just been tired, busy and anti-social quite honestly.

I lot of nothing and a lot of something has been happening. For the past 4 days I've been fighting with Jonno. I was really upset but we've finally worked it all out, I hope. Kayla stay over last night. Had a great time. I went over Heather's house for the night like 2-3 weeks ago and I loved that. It was Kira's Birthday so we went to the movies on the Saturday that just went. Saw The Unborn, I shat myself. I class myself as a horror buff, right? So I don't really get scared. I screamed like 6 times, started hyper ventilating once or twice and cried from fear about 2 times. I mean fuck it was shit scary. Then I told my Mum how scared I got and she knows I don't find horror movies that scary so she was thinking it was pretty scary. So we download it and put in on a disc and watched it, a second time in one day for me. I watched it with Kayla, Mum, Jonno <3 and Michael by half way through they were all like "Is it going to get scary yet". It wasn't scary watching it at home. It was night we had all the lights off and yeah. I just shat myself in the cinemas, I think it was the big screen effect. Weird as.

Umm brother moving out in late April, getting a double bed once he has moved out. Wicked as.

Umm, I hate school. Cox has scared me out of wanting to do music in year 11 and 12. The tit.

I'm on the Pill it'll make me better all over hopefully.

I got a blood test done about 2-3 weeks ago. My iron is extremely low. I have to take 2 iron tablets a day. Annoying but it will make me less tired.

Have had some pretty bad sleep a lot lately. I keep waking up at between 4am till 6am I get up take a piss and then I'll be awake for like 30-60 minutes. So when I get up for school I can't. Really sucks.

About a week ago I had a terrible nightmare. I've never had such a bad nightmare, EVER.

I had dreamt I was 5 years old again and for some reason I'm at my Aunties with my Mum and Michael but of course I still have my mind of a 15 year old. Then I remember Jonno and think to myself where is he? Will he be 5 again too? So I go up to Mum and say Where's Jonno? I miss him. She just answers me with, What? Who are you talking about Emily? I get really upset but the nightmare still keeps going. So in my nightmare I make a imaginary friend up named Adam. He is like my best friend. He is 5 too. I can't see him but I know he is there like I can feel him. So I'm holding his hand and we're walking around with Mum but then this bad thing that I can't see pulls at him. Tries to take him away but I don't let go of his hand. I'm getting pulled too. I hear him scream and cry not to let go. In real life my heart starts beating really fast and I get the feeling of being pulled/sucked in my bed. Like I'm sinking down. Then in my nightmare while this thing is still pulling Adam from me this dead face of a child flashes in front of my eyes so then I try to scream in real life but I can't the feeling of being sucked down just gets stronger. Then I think I let Adam go and my nightmare ends and I wake up. It was horrible. It felt so real and was really scary. I've never experienced that before.

So other things have happened but I'm tired and need sleep.

Love you all,
And I will try to put more on here and update more often.
xxx -Em.